The Little Bunny's Fact

UJIAN PENOLONG PEGAWAI TADBIR [UPLB]

Heavy rain early morning today. Unexpected. Well, I'm still wide awake after preparing Nasi Lemak for my darling's co worker. Haven't take my sleeping beauty because of two things.

1. Nasi Lemak punya business.

Since my parent in law taking a really long vacay from Pasar Malam, I had to find another way to get bucks. Why? cause we can't stand still while our daily sources running out. So, I have to wake up to get things done. That's what I call a hustle. After all, my Nasi Lemak didn't that bad. They making a lot of pennies lately you know. And fans too!

2. Penolong Pegawai Tadbir punya hal.

Ok. This one. I got an email from e-recruitment Sarawak last tuesday informing me about attending a test for Penolong Pegawai Tadbir this 14/05 (Saturday). I hate to accept this but I hardly pass any Government's job offer. Yup, ugly truth. I already got over ten test/interviews offer since graduated but none of them passed. Seriously? why so hard? Because my father is not a Malaysian nationality? Pfft, give me a break. I got my education from kinder to U at government school so why don't let me work now.

Based on my research, there will be essay question and I HATE ESSAY. This kinda thing always making me nervous as I don't really good in writing formal Bahasa Melayu. You know the 'akautability', the 'kualitasi' dan serakan karib dengannya. Even my english gone bad. So, nak tak nak, saya kena letak minyak pelincir lagi kat gear otak. Dah berkarat sangat dah. Study balik amacam saya study kat U dulu. Amboi, study sangattt. Harum bulak! hahaha.

So, adding my nerve cracking, I will attend this test t UPM Bintulu. KLMJ lah alamatnya.Since, staff there seems to know me, there's going to have ' ktk cney..' 'hey, ktk nak yah nak...' 'eh, vee..' So, preparing such a conversation take me some times to produce better answer. Well, you know, I am kinda macam 'glemer' jugak kat upm ni tapi tak lah nak sampai sangat glemer nye tu. either a good way or a bad way. I just hoping everyone happy seeing me there and help me to go through this. I

Please please please God make it happen this time. FingerCross!

Long time no Writing

So, I'm start again. I had swear myself to hush a bit with social media since my world war IV with my in laws 2 years ago. Well, maybe I can't cope with that. Felt so lonely for not being able to let out everything in your mind. Its like a sucking parasite sometimes. Not saying there's no one I can share my thought nor my feelings real life but either nobody reach what I want to point out and enjoying it. Even to my husband. Well, nah. He totally no interest at all other than Big Bang and GD. So, I end up here. Again. Screw. Me. Thanks God I still can't handle myself for not posting dissed things on Facebook. Bless me. Vanessa upgraded! Woahoah!

A lot happens in a year. I can't resemble them properly now but critical memories remine on my present time. I can feel my writing literally seems so awkward right now since I just finished the whole episodes of the UNPRETTY RAPSTARS (Korean Reality TV Show) on youtube. Hahaha! Yeah, awkkkkwardddddd. And these sounds of dubstep, techno are clinging in my ears to my head for like FOOOREVVEERRR. I read the top down to this sentence like I was creating a lyrics or rapping or something. Hahah! I just can't understand my state of mind right now. Ok. cool down. Breath in. Breath out. Continue.

Hmmm, so, where should I start first?? hummm, Ahha! Ok. Well, FYI we got our house back! Yeppi! and we already moving in and living independently for 2 months now. Umm, life goods. everything ok. Only the loan part are so tiring. Well, you have to start from ZERO. When I mean zero, it is mean completely empty. No TV, no washing machine, no refrigerator, no sofas, no dining table and bla bla bla bla bla. And funny event that Danyell end up talking with the white walls behind him. Yup. Its true. Poor him. Pretty lucky business run smoothly that time. So we got our kitchen appliances first as FOOD was a LIFE. Hail for the Foods! Then we bought our beautiful-black-classy-glassy dining table as we ain't done all things on the floor. So yeah, dining table is a must! Then 1 month past we got our 40inch Soooo-Smart TV LG! Checked! Super happy. Our dreams came true. Unfortunately, we really don't have this love connection with Astro so, we leaving it unpaid. Well, I never had the intention to get an Astro one day. These agents came up from nowhere knocking my in laws's door and asking Rex to sign up for registration for free. Who doesn't like FREE thing? So, we got it for free and we didn't use till we move in to our house and the bills getting up then, its time for us to just dump this thing. As a businessman/woman, especially in this era, Internet was a like a kidney. When you don't have a kidney your body hard to function well. We seriously hate mobile quota. This f***ing money eater doesn't deserve to live! So, we sign up for TM Streamxy and we got free installation after that. Rex really do got a lot of friends hahaha!So we got our superb internet and have infinite excess every programs we liked through our sooo-smart tv and PROBLEM SOLVED!

But, we still need few things crucial in our home. Refrigerator and washing machine. Both things really made us struggles so so hard. Hummm, Its ok. Don't have to rush. Who knows our God put some refrigerator and washing machine rains someday. Hell yeah, world gonna be like in the Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs Movie (1 of my sons fav movies!). I already imagine how the monster refrigerator gonna be looks like. REFRIDGERATORUSS the long lost Dino machine. Roaarrrr!!! *chuckles yeah right. hahaha. Hurmm, Talking about how sleeping at night. Well, we seems comfortable sleeping on the living room for now. Sleep with TV's on was a relaxing thing and a way to make you shock seeing your bills at the end of month later on. But satisfying that our tv is a five star eco-friendly tv and it consume small amount of electricity. Soo-smart TV right? We haven't pay any electricity bills since we move in. Cool huh? hehe

Ok. I'll have to pause for now. My writing excessive as my eyes feeling a bit tired. so please excuse me. I think I need a pillow right now. =)

Dream to fly & walk

How I wish I could go travel to the end of the world. To know how small this world are. To know how wonderful God's creations and to learn and to search how life bring up various of colors but at the end its actually connected to each other. The only thing are they merging and growing.

Not after I was married early. I already planned the future and one of the lists is traveling. But now it seems changing as I not one but 3 now. Still not means this dream going to lose. It is just restricted by 2 human's desire- Money & time.

Maybe too soon? There will be. I can feel it.

Working Mom

Finally, God answer my prayer. after dozen interviews; phone call, walk-in, at last this month I'm EMPLOYED! Hureyy :D Sakit hati juga cause I've spent lot of time, effort, money to attend and arrange every interview sampai nak putus harapan tak pandai sangkut2. Jawatan pun beraneka2 dah isi sampai email full dengan CV je. Tah2 majikan pun dah fed up balik2 CV saya. hehehe ~ Tpi Tuhan sentiasa memberi indah pada waktunya. Maybe lambat sikettttttt tapi tak akan dia tak memberi kepada sesiapa yang meminta kepada Nya. Selalu tepat pada waktunya :)

Masuk harini dah dua hari berkerja as a Secretary dengan Molycarbide (Specialized car parts manufacturing). Means, made in Malaysia. No tiru2 yee. Ori punye. And cuma certain cars use these components and kereta beberapa negara luar je yang guna eg. Australia, Hong Kong, Taiwan, Thailand, USA. Manager pun ada bgtau aritu, selalunya kereta2 antik yang guna. Molycarbide ni company org Australia. Mmg habis keluar ayat2 org puteh saya inform pasal kerja dgn sleng2 nye skali. hahaha! Lagi dahsyat ckp dgn Chinese Hong Kong, english sy, dia tak faham lagi lah english saya dia tak faham. Nah, ambik kau! haha ~ Hmm, So far, so good lah. Tak pressure sangat tapi tak tau lah brapa bulan, brapa tahun kemudian kan.

Salary mmg above my expected salary. Mau tau? TET!! mana boleh bgtauuuuuu~ nnt kena ckp mcm2. Itu biar rahsia di antara anyir dan Jakarta <-- Eh, betul ka tu. haha !

Harapan, biar Vanessa semakin kuat after this, semakin berjaya dan semakin maju. Acecececehhh :)

Graphic Designer

For the past two months, I'm being busy submitting my CV to any companies and vacancies. You should see my email. They were tons! literally can say I've almost attend for more than 10 interviews and about 4 phone-call-interviews. Unfortunately, none of them gave me positive response either inform me whether I succeed or not.

Talk about interview, this week I got phone call from a wedding card maker company at Putatan. Vacancy Graphic Designer gitu~ hewhewhew. They ask me to send my artwork design via email and they want to see it the day after. So, I rush searching for photoshop software or any graphic software available. Luckily, a friend of mine got it during her study.

Here some of artwork designs I made for only a day:

My homemade bakery business card.

Logo design for Persatuan Rekriasi dan Kebudayan PTD.

My wedding Invitation Card. p/s nama2 tu xkaitan diantara y masi hidup ataupun dah mati k.

Esok, my second interview, mau test skill kali. Ataupun drng nda yakin sy y buat. Apa2pun all the best for me ! Ok bye. mau smbung buat design :D

Another friend gone :(

Just yesterday I wrote about my uncle's death and now, another sad news about my coursemate passed away. She been in a car accident on 6th feb, coma for a day and passed away the day after. Sadly, her former coursemate including me and teachers from UPMKB just heard this news yesterday, Everybody was shocked.

Nani bte Temu from Kluang. A very quiet, shy and solehah girl. Known with her pashmina and jubah. Recall back during my dip study, I always stumbled grouping with her since we always become the leftover every time there's a group assignment. Me, eli, (<--- not-so-alim) + mira, husna n her (Ustazah-becoming). ALWAYS! hahaha.

I still remember her smirky little face whenever she asking me a questions which kinda annoy me sometime but she's a nice, lovely girl. Just maybe I am not really closed to her or I can say not really 'connected'. Yeah, well I am a freethinker, doin stuff the way I do, love making jokes and fun to other. She was totally opposite me. I believe she more than what I thought. Only mira & husna know how kind she was. From their fb, I can see how much they felt the lost of their good-closest friend and they mention how kind and generous she was toward her friend, family and religion's activities.

Dear Nani, I'm sorry for all the wrong things I've done to you and I'm sorry could not teach you how to wear eyeliner. It is a gift knowing you. study together with you. I gonna miss you. No more jokes on Nani with Arif :( Rest in peace. Al-fatihah

March Sadness (Bye Uncle Roy)

It was horrible for the beginning month for our family. I really EXTREMLY shocked! I saw my aunty's (my father's younger sister) posted on her wall about my uncle's death. I tried to calm down, extracts and positively believe that my uncle already gone.My mind stopped for a while because it is just hard to accept the truth the way he died. He waas killed and shotted down 9 times because of robbery by cold blooded people during in his way (brought a lot lot of money) to a contractor site for salary day. More sad, no one witnesses the shooting. He just found dead where his body lying on the ground with his rings, watch, necklace and money gone missing. Poor uncle T^T

During his 50yrs old birthday at Pitogo, Zambonga Del Sur

He live with us since he married to my aunt Tata at Telupid where my families work long ago. Uncle Roy is my aunty's (My father's elder sister) husband. He really a nice man and lovely father. He just like a father to me and I still remember he always told jokes to us when I and my other siblings still in the young age. He always give advice and help my grandparents taking care our retail shop, But, they leaved Malaysia not long after that because their son will be study at elementary school in the Philippines.

I've visited Philippines once on 2007 for my Uncle Paipo wedding's day and they were living at my grandparent's house at Dinas, Pagadian City. I have several pictures but I forgot where did I kept my old photo album. That was the very last time I met Uncle Roy. Hmmmmm, gonna miss him for sure. RIP :(